Finally, done with first round of midterms!!  But i have another one next week, but considering it is the last one until finals, I am content.  Endless papers to write and countless pages to read, I get a brain fart so easily now.  The reality of college is beginning to sink in.  I’m happy tho with this go-go-go lifestyle, let’s hope it doesn’t come crashing down anytime soon.  But there will always be periods of slowness, which will be fine when it comes.  I’ll need it.

sidenote: i’m thinking of completely abandoning this blog and creating a new, secret one, which will be difficult to find. it’ll be one of those “oh, you can’t find me because i don’t want anyone to know of it” blogs. find waldo if you can (:

Who says turning 19 isn’t anything special?  Every birthday is a day worth celebrating.  Just gave Mary Nguyen a midnight birthday surprise and the smile on her initial reaction was “WHAT THE F*CK?!” LOL priceless.

Sunday: Snowed in at Grapevine

Monday: Arrived at Irvin, Gift Exchange & Played Apples to Apples

Tuesday: Payed Bills, Organized school stuff, rekindled with familiar faces, went to my first Liwanag (Filipino Church Youth Group) Meeting

Wednesday: Most busiest day of the week, LOVE PUBLIC HEALTH 1!!

Thursday: Slept in, Kababayan, then first “clubbing” event with Trishycakes, Alyssa, and Ice

Friday: Victoria’s Birthday lap dance (video to follow)

Saturday: Chill :)

Twas was an amazing week.

Since “last year” (specifically December 30th) everything has been a chaotic blur, but in a good way.  Kept productive with festivities, last minute parties, packing, unpacking, traveling for an unscrupulous (learned that word from apples to apples =) ) 13 hours from Sacramento to Irvine, and now here I am blogging on my 3rd day of Winter quarter.  Too much to say, too much have been done, but long story short, i love it.  Love how i am busy.  Love that i have things to do.  Love how i can be kept occupied which indefinitely, is going to drive me mad very soon.

However in all the hype, I saw you today, but I won’t slow down for you.  You’re the past and I need to keep moving forward with no weights down on me.  It’s for the best.  At least for now. 

My auntie Daisy (Danielle’s mom) had a stroke yesterday, bleeding was found in her brain.  She had a successful surgery, but what’s unfortunate is how she will have to spend New Years in a hospital bed.  Hope to visit her soon.  I pray for her full recovery.

It’s cold, pouring rain, and the winds are howling.  Perfect cuddling weather but no one to do it with. I’ll just snuggle under my blanket and watch the food network. :)

Recap of my simplistic day:

1. Woke up to the doorbell ringing and forgot I was suppose to hang out with Wes

2. Kicked back with Wesley

3. Cleaned productively

4. Made a simple dinner of garlic, olive oil, spinach and linguine

5. Watched Pirates of the Caribbean & took a nap

“One Horchata Please!”

Just got home from an amazing night with the best friends.  We went to play late night laser tag for Andrea’s 19th birthday and even though we were a small crowd, we still had fun.  Prior to going, Jenny decides to give me a facial treatment by putting a clay mask on my face.  Which was pointless since we were going to “work out” right afterward.  On our way to Laser X, we came across this huge Christmas tree, gorgeous and randomly standing in a automotive store’s parking lot.  Andrea, Jenny, and I decided to get out of the car and take one of the giant ornaments off the tree as a souvenir reminder of how our randomness gets the bests of us. Worked up an appetite after playing laser tag so Jenny and I decide to go get some legit Mexican food at this 24 hour place.  Jenny never had Mexican food so I had her try the best of the best: carne asada fries, supreme nachos, and a horchata.  She sounded so Asian when she was ordering the food over the drive through speakers.  Got the food and decided to eat in a Hilton parking lot where half way through eating our feast, a security guard comes up to the car window and wonders why we pulled into the parking lot and never got out.  Lo and behold he sees our food and lets us finish eating. 

Twas was a great night, can’t wait for more spontaneous adventures this week.

For those who know me, yes, I plastered a fake smile since I have been home for winter break.  I was happy in moments, but the happiness did not linger.  It’s no use to be sad during Christmas time.  Especially when I have friends and family that surrounded me making me feel loved and comforted.  But for the past weeks or so, I haven’t been feeling that jolly Christmas mood that I typically would every year.  Reason being that I lost a really good friend…

No he did not pass away nor did he move away to a far off place.  In fact, we have a class together next quarter.  Because of some uneasiness between us, we decided to stop talking, practically ignoring each other.  Ignoring can help, but how long can this tactic last?  How long until I give into the temptation to pick up my phone and text him a simple “good morning?”  How long until I cannot resist the curiosity to go onto his Facebook profile and determine if he is happy simply by his pictures and status updates?  How long until I know he will be okay?  Maybe that’s what has been bothering me through this weary month of December. I haven’t learned to accept that what we had is now over and I must move on. The thought of having lost a good friend freckled my mind every night up until now.  Tonight, I gave in and entered his name onto the search bar on Facebook.  He posted that he created a Tumblr.  We both spoke of creating one before our friendship ended.  I read one of his recent posts.  I reread it five times until I was certain by his words and came to realize that…he’ll be ok.

I am at ease now.   No longer will my mind dwell on our past.  I can move into 2011 knowing that I am freed from this cage of remorse and guilt.  There is nothing left to worry about.  He will be fine.  And in time, maybe something will rekindle between us.  But I will not anticipate that day.  I will go into the New Year without any expectancies and start off fresh.  And to that friend of mind, if you are reading this, just know I will be ok too.